Wow. It's been an incredibly long time since I've been on here. Over a year. I came home from college for a few days and remembered this site, thought I might check it out. I don't have the time to read everything that everybody has posted in the last year, but if there is anything in particular anyone wants me to check out, I will be more than happy to.

It has been yet another long, exciting and painful year. A lot has happened and I've grown up so much. I broke it off with my last boyfriend because I couldn't handle a relationship. I was to lost...broken. I failed my entire second semester of college, worked a few dead end jobs, and realized just how important school is. I went back to school and have been doing pretty well. I officially moved out of my dad's place and into an appartment with my current boyfriend Preston. We celebrated our one year anniversary on 4-20. How ironic. I don't smoke pot anymore, no longer drink everynight, and don't (usually) drink to forget. I quit my job at the college and am now waitressing at a local BBQ joint. I love it. I got off of my depression pills which was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. Those things are horrible and I am much better off without them, even if I get sad sometimes.

I've been dealing with my mom's death...sort of. I don't think about her much because it is far too painful. I stopped going to therepy because I felt as if I was just going in circles and decieded to deal with things and heal on my own time. It's been shitty and I know I'm never going to be entirely happy again, but I'm doing better.

I don't know what else to say right now, just that I would like to hear from those of you who I don't talk to anymore. It would be nice to see how you are all doing, so drop me a line. I hope you all are well.

Love and Peace,
Becca